i think?

I like to think that I'm not a bad person

scratch that

I used to like to think that people thought I was a good person. Now as days go by and it officially became 2009, and after a drunk New Years Eve epiphany. I officially don't give a shit. Don't get me wrong, I try to. But the strength it takes to crack a smile or joke back with people is drained. I have messed up several friendships just for the sake of messing up friendships. When I met a girl about 6 months ago that I started to like, I just started lying to her, I don't know why but I did and then on New Years Eve I called her and told her the truth. It didn't happen so clean cut like that though. After a couple days I'm completely fine with it, I thought I was supposed to feel regretful or something but I don't, as a matter of fact I feel great. I started off the New Year telling the truth, maybe that's why, or I'm just cold hearted bastard who's getting set in his ways. Yeah, I'm probably going to die alone but I can accept that.